This blog was created for others who will hopefully glean something from the words I have written.Not much to say except I ran off from an orphanage when I was 13 years old.Hopped on a freight train and joined the circus.Have been wandering ever since.I am grateful to be alive and my only desire is to leave something here for others to gain from.If I can accomplish that then I have successfully reached my intended goal.All we have left in the end is our legacy.
Will you chase me away if I come to you I will travel the slow train in anticipation Will you refuse to open the door Slamming shut the window in my mind Will you kick my dreams away Destroying what I hope to find Will you kill me with your silence Through your cold stare Pretending to love me for my sake When you really do not care Will you pray for my death Although by my side Not realizing that our love has died Will you caress yourself Concealing from me Your very thoughts that set me free Allowing me to live the lie Will you abandon me as I slowly die Will you stand far away when they lower me Into my silent grave by the sea Will you begin to tell so as to dispell These thoughts that twist in me My only wish is to make you happy If this cannot be done well Let me go so you may find it It's better than living in hell If I can know you are truly happy Although it means there must be distance I will relegate my heart to lonliness So that you may complete your existence
This maniacal cat In my recurring dream Follows me down the long river bank Its shark like teeth,is it smiling Or ready to make me its prey It has a tail that wags at me Is it just a tactic it uses A ploy to get me to come closer Or am I required to take a leap of faith Into its awaiting jaws of death Animals of different species are Allowed to love eachother But wherein can they make a home It is the essense of all creation Thankful for the chromosome A monkey with the brain of a human What would be thought of next Eyes of eagles to see with better Or the legs of horses for stamina without rest Cave drawings upon walls reveal The notions of men of old This cat continues to haunt my dreams Its calculating eyes which appear so cold Next time I dream of it maybe I will offer a fish Will it ask for a serpent instead If it were not immersed in water In vinegar as its liquid in which to thrive Would it request a drink of water To soothe its ailing head Does it ponder the images That appear in dirty clouds I ponder its very existence The effects it would have on the crowds Who would peer at it through dark glasses And revile it until extinction was achieved
Dust within like a clap of thunder My life is far from done I am the father of many children Although I have fathered none I am some kind of magnet it seems Stuck in the middle of the crowd There is no hiding or so it seems My energy speaks out too loud Various ways I have tried to muffle it Isolation is the only way Hiding in dark remote places Until I can no longer stay From dark forests into hell Where I must run from The viper and the demon with hooves In single solitude another form of hiding Until comes the time when he moves I must breach the veil when the curtain lifts Otherwise I must remain Until when the next time frame shifts The clap of thunder makes the signal It is the clicking within the sounding bell It fill my ears with silent tears From dark forests as I move in towards hell
Floating across the blue sky She plays alone today Skipping along towards a rainbow She visits me this way Always when the sun is high at near noon Not another cloud in the sky Where does she come from Where does she go Her presence is pleasant to my eye Many times I have seen her The girl without a name Sometimes she brings her ball Always playing a game Jumping rope,skipping at times She replaces my sister long gone Who dissapeared without a trace Once upon a dawn I think it would be nice to name her JoAnne will be her name I will talk to her in the sky where she lives Her life will still be the same Floating as the wisp in the sky Leaving without warning She bids me adieu quickly today In the warmth of the desert morning Farewell JoAnne until next time Be well my sister,be well
